Diaries of a Terrorist / Christopher Soto / 2022

Diaries of a Terrorist / Christopher Soto / 2023 

Diaries of a Terrorist / Christopher Soto / 2022

Fans of sad girl poems will find more to love as Soto’s pen goes beyond the queer coming-of-age narratives of their first collection, extending its vision to a critique of the prison industrial complex at large. Soto’s mix of punk, play, pain, and perversion cries while it laughs while it comes. The rare moments of laziness (the ending lines of Transgender Cyborgs Attack, for example) are easy to forgive when poems like “Concerning Our Necropolitical Landscape,” “Transactional Sex with Satan,” and “Two Lovers in Perfect Synchronicity” buttress them. The title Diaries of a Terrorist seems a bit like a misdirection, as the collection doesn’t consider revolutionary violence much at all, except for a poem “In Support of Violence,” which narrates the vengeance hundreds of Indian survivors took murdering their rapist. Of course, that’s perhaps the point: terrorists are first and foremost people with complex interior worlds and relationships, not just frenzied mass murderers. Still, the tenderness barely hidden in between Soto’s barbaric yawping betrays a much softer soul. Elsewhere, in Piscucha Magazine, Soto confessed “I hate the word revolution. I hate its bloody reality.” I don’t resent Soto for this, but I do think the title might understandably misdirect a reader looking for a poet whose political vision includes or interrogates revolutionary violence more explicitly and thoughtfully. I want to teach a queer poetry class where I teach this alongside fei hernandez, Danez Smith, and Marylyn Tan. 4/5

 

Yellowface / R. F. Kuang / 2023

Yellowface / R. F. Kuang / 2023

Yellowface took a brilliant and ambitious premise and squandered it soundly. The premise: June, a white woman and struggling writer, has Athena, an Asian acquaintance/friend and celebrated author die, in her presence and then steals her manuscript and publishes it under her own name. At its best, Yellowface could have been a thrilling and twisted psychological novel, plunging into the depths of the white mind and its traumas and neuroses. Literary examples of unlikeable or similarly unreliable and morally reprehensible characters abound from Humbert Humbert in Lolita by Nabokov to Stevens in Remains of the Day by Ishiguro. Kuang squanders her premise by 1) making this primarily a novel about writing, failing to give June any significant social or familial relationships or routine beyond the internet to provide her with any depth 2) making June pretty damn stupid. The former is just bad writing, giving an almost stream-of-consciousness style narration of the inanity in June’s head rather than taking us to scenes, where Kuang is most effective. The latter is just boring, especially considering when recent history provides a plethora of examples of ethnic studies professors, presidential candidates, and authors guilty of racial fraud who have contributed significantly to their fields and whose mental gymnastics and self-delusion is much more complicated and interesting territory. There were moments where June bemoaned her writer’s block and I wasn’t sure Kuang wasn’t channeling her own frustration in writing this novel. This book’s discussion of cancellation, suicidality, meritocracy, and racism in the publishing industry is so bungled that I think it will ultimately do more harm than good to our discourse.  

I strongly agree with the critiques in withcindy here as well and recommend this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JUdFkRdgPDU 

1.5/5

Hullabaloo in the Guava Orchard / Kiran Desai / 1998 

Hullabaloo in the Guava Orchard / Kiran Desai / 1998 

Thank you to RJ Walker for gifting me this wonderful book years ago, which I only just read in India. HITGO cleverly employs a cartoonish humor to tell a story about a lazy son turned accidental sage when his refusal to participate in the day to day grind of contemporary Indian work culture and instead sit in a tree all day and all night for months on end. There, his clapbacks at his disappointed father and society,  as well as his closeness to nature are read as sage-like. The humor crackles with moments of emotional truth that made me smile, cackle aloud, and simply vibe.  Take the surprising emotional depth of the moment the lazy son/sages sister in a fit of infatuated passion accidentally bites her beloved's ear off in her aggression. Or take the intro, where Indians of all social strata dream up ways of artificially, magically, or otherwise bringing a monsoon to conquer a months long heat wave that has them all exasperated.  Their ideas are hilarious, ridiculous, cartoonish, and while this isn't realism, it humorously pokes at the levels of desperation we are all melted to in heat. Another one of HITGO's merits is that it features a roving gang of drunken monkeys. The ending was a little bit of a deus ex machina, but I'm not even mad.  The book is a vibe and tickles so well I have no qualms calling it 5/5. 


This Non-Violent Stuff’ll Get You Killed / Charles E. Cobb Jr / 2014

This Non-Violent Stuff’ll Get You Killed / Charles E. Cobb Jr / 2014

Pratik Raghu recommended this book to me years ago, which I only just read in India. It's a story of Black resistance to white supremacy told through African American relationships to guns. Far from romanticizing violent resistance, Cobb opens by laughing off the idea of Blacks leading an armed revolution of the US as a fantasy and criticizing Fanon’s view of guns as inherent to liberation. Instead, Cobb weaves the history of Black veterans’ participation in the American Revolutionary and Civil War to its necessary role in the Black Liberation movements of the 60s and 70s. Public education teaches Black history as slavery, civil war, Jim Crow, then the civil rights movement, as if Black people didn't learn to fight and defend themselves effectively until the 50s or so. In doing so, it erases not just Black participation in early rebellions of the American Revolutionary period, but also the ideals and convictions behind those weapons, which were of course wildly different than those of the Founding Fathers.  It erases the violent repression and constant extrajudicial murder of Black people, convict leasing of the Reconstruction period and how Blacks managed to protect themselves, sometimes managing to scare off vigilantes with shots in the air, frequently choosing to bow down, however reluctantly and with whatever much subversive resistance, to overwhelming reactionary violence by white mobs who would use any reason not just to lynch, but terrorize and burn down Black communities. It erases the Deacons for Defense and Justice and other unnamed armed groups that protected nonviolent organizers in the civil rights era, shooting bullets into the air to scare off Klan members and other terrorists, as well as providing armed security for nonviolent demonstrators, sometimes against the wishes of said demonstrators, but more often, providing safe homes and teaching them how to be safe under the tyranny of the South. Cobb makes clear the nonviolent civil rights movement would've been impossible without guns. There's a lot more I can say, but mostly I want to express gratitude for this book as it made so much of history make more sense to me. It's hard to get an overarching history that shares how the civil rights movement worked on the grassroots level. One of the weirdest things about the 50s and 60s movement is that its taught as if it was top down (led by King and a few others) rather than grassroots, when the grassroots elements of the movement are the ones that accomplished the most in terms of chipping away at the South's apartheid state.  Grassroots activists had profound disagreements with King and the presence and need of guns sometimes embarrassed nonviolent, who sometimes attempted to portray the movement in the squeakiest cleanest light to continue to win the media narrative. I learned so much from this book that i really wish i would've known learned between 14 to 16. 5/5 no doubt.  

Dark Days / Roger Reeves / 2023

Dark Days: Fugitive Essays / Roger Reeves / 2023

Roger Reeves is one of my favorite poets, so I came into this collection with high hopes that were somewhat dashed. Don't get me wrong, Reeves has moments of absolute brilliance and I frequently turned over ideas. “Through the Smoke, Through The Veil, Through the Wind,” “A Little Brown Liquor,” and “Peace Be Still” I may even consider more or less flawless. I would teach some of these essays in a heartbeat. I have already recommended others to friends. But his essays frequently had me asking “where are you going with this?” as he weaved disparate, though artful, allusions from hiphop to theory to the canon to social media in a sometimes dizzying and ultimately unsatisfying way. At times, these hiccups are minor, like when Reeves overreads Future, attributing a cool interpretation of a lyric to Future's intention rather than the Reeves’ own genius. At other times, the hiccups sour entire essays, even when Reeves's insights and close readings are otherwise pretty damn sharp. Take his essay “Poetry Isn’t the Revolution, but a Way of Knowing Why It Must Come,” where he discusses enunciation and the power of the word that puts the speaker at risk of death. His argument then takes a turn straight into a wall as he uses LOOK by Solmaz Sherif as his most contemporary example. While LOOK is undeniably an excellent work of art, enunciation it is not.  Rather than exploring the ways poetry can assert itself in the political arena to take on true, necessary risks, Reeves acts like the literary salon is the battlefront. But lemme watch my unlettered mouth and just get to the rating. Can't believe I gotta give my favorite poet a 3.25 out of 5. 

West: A Translation / Paisley Rekdal / 2023

West: A Translation / Paisley Rekdal / 2023

Check out the website here: https://westtrain.org/

West is a gorgeous tour-de-force interrogating the history and legacy of the American railroad as a fraught symbol of nationality for the US empire. Reading either the poetry collection, published by Copper Canyon, or its accompanying website alone does not suffice, as they complete one another in useful ways. Ideally, these projects are read in conversation in my opinion, and I hope the NBA readers reviewed both thoroughly before longlisting the project. The project as a whole bases itself one of the two poems a Chinese migrant left on the walls of his cell on Ellis Island before dying by suicide. 

On the website, readers are greeted by a transcription of the poem in Chinese characters. If you hover over the characters, you are greeted by a literal translation of the character into English and a poem written by Rekdal inspired by the character. The poems include a range of voices from that of political leaders, such as Presidents, Brigham Young, and union leaders, to that of the workers and the passengers of the railroad, including “What Day,” a tender poem in the voice of a queer Chinese worker and “Vainly,” which borrows language from manuals of etiquette and politeness for women. On the website, its muted black and red tones give the project a sense of mysticism. Poetry as a medium contributes to this sense of mystery, because even in a poem written in straightforward language, its form and context creates a trapdoor that absconds the reader into the mysteries of history. Perhaps a simpleton or an orientalist reader would be tempted to believe the website gives them access to a concrete and uncontested history, but even if so, the sheer range of voices here would create such a cacophony in the heads of the readers, I doubt they could keep such a simplistic reading straight in their heads. The website especially thrives on the auditory and visual elements of the short video poems, where Rekdal reads the poems to a backdrop of photographs, paintings, landscapes, and film from the era and relevant regions. Rekdal is an impressive performer, taking on her subjects’ voices with a presence that animated and emphasized aspects of the poems that were less exciting for me on the page. Perhaps this is a shortcoming on my part as a reader for not knowing or caring to animate the text with my own flesh and tongue, but the strength of the visual and auditory components of the website is that whatever shortcomings I may have as a reader are kicked to the side as I’m forced to grapple with the vibration of a poem spoken aloud with all the girth and tension of its human emotion and knowledge. Nowhere is the power of this effect more clear than in the performance of “This.” On the page, the line “this is the sound of a train” merely repeats itself over and over until the text overlaps itself repeatedly. Visually, this can be interesting on the page, but not terribly so. If the reader fails to read the poem aloud, they might miss the point entirely. Your voice reading the poem--that is the sound of a train. The reader, especially if they are situated in the US, especially if they, like me, have spent substantial time in the American West, are the outcome of this great wave of history. On the website, the poem is read aloud by the descendents of the Chinese railroad workers.They are the consequence of the railroad and they too are the sound of a train. What I love most about the website is its embedded pedagogical usefulness. The video poems with their archival imagery and Rekdal’s intonation will likely help students parse difficult history, material, and poetic form. It can teach students how to angle their way into poems and how to creatively imagine history. This is an invaluable teaching tool. The website ends with a translation of the original Chinese poem left on the wall. 

Now onto the book incarnation of this project. It is split into two sections. The first half of the collection includes all of the poems on the website. The second half includes prose poems or essayistic meditations on the same Chinese characters, sometimes providing additional context for the poems but not in a boring scholarly footnote sort of way. Rather, these essays wring the material anxiously in their hands. Here, you can sense Rekdal’s eye tracing primary sources and wrestling with the muck of history, the weight of trying to depict a convoluted moment of our nation and empire’s growth. The bewitching power of the website with all its music, audio engineering, and video work cannot overwhelm the reader here in the sublime of the moment. Instead, the bare voices gather one on top of the other and the impossibility of the project becomes more apparent in the process. What voices are included and why? What personally motivates Rekdal to tell these histories? As I’m in a particularly zealous moment of my own study of history through Marxist perspectives, I wrestled with the question of who Rekdal’s project would serve. Was it ultimately still a statist project supporting some sense of the region’s nationalism and appropriating these voices in service of an American identity? 

These are difficult questions. While I’m not sure I landed on a clear answer, I want to congratulate Rekdal on her political slyness here. As poet laureate, she was given the task to write a statist poem commemorating the 150th anniversary of the transcontinental railroad with  the additional awkwardness of the implicit or perhaps even explicit--hey, you got some Chinese blood, why don’t you write something that celebrates the Chinese in particular, yeah? What she gave them was something much more beautiful and complex. Where a more cowardly or  simple poet may have given them an elegant enough poem celebrating the marginalized subject and supposing to “give voice to the voiceless,” Rekdal delivers a polyvocal contradictory project that appropriates the voices of white supremacists, governmental forms, etiquette manuals, as well as attempting to voice or describe the condition of orphans, minoritized groups, and more. Doing so lays the mores of the era and the racist scaffolding of the US empire bare; however, she does this in a way that clinches so tightly to primary historical sources that it would be hard to fault Rekdal as politically biased. The project maintains its air of objectivity through its overwhelming cacophony of voices. Simply put, Rekdal makes it impossible to view the railroad, and thereby the US empire, in a flattened simplistic way typical of these projects. While a reader (read: I) might be dissatisfied that Rekdal isn’t angry or critical enough at moments or doesn’t find a way to incorporate yet another marginalized voice forgotten in the silences of the archive, Rekdal is also dodging bullets in a state that wouldn’t hesitate to cut her poet laureate funding or ban her book. How effective is the project as a pedagogical tool? Is it reaching younger audiences and providing nuance to how they might view these moments of US history?  Perhaps those are more apt questions that are beyond the scope of a book review. The fact Rekdal is now leading the American West Center as director suggests that this project at least succeeded in providing her with a leg into this position. In this role, she might effectively apply the same critical eye or diversify what is represented by the Center and Utah at large. There’s few scholars in Utah I’d trust more in this role. 

To her credit, Rekdal lays her cards out pretty bare in the essay “Homeward Facing,” where she writes: “The work of the railroad is the work of empire, and for America to rise again and again, it must reinvest in its fantasy of itself as renewable, progressive, flexible. We are all servants of empire one way or another; I do not exclude myself in this. The extravagance of this poem I have produced reveals that I, too, am empire’s scribe. That in my attempt to critique the achievement I have also celebrated it; that it would be dishonest not to celebrate what inspires, at its root, a kind of wonder. For if I do not choose, also, to commemoration, do I further erase the workers? I refuse to abandon all fantasies of my nation.” (bold emphasis mine) I had an immediate repulsion to the portion in bold. I just think Rekdal is flatout wrong here. This is a rather extreme example, but I would point to the atomic bomb as a clear example of something that inspires great wonder, awe, and terror that there’s good reason not to celebrate. Given the latest Oppenheimer craze at the box office, it’s likely that US nationalism is dead set on seducing us with the romance of her technological advancements, regardless of their consequences, the unnamed dead they pile on. There’s a way of respecting your enemy, feeling the sublime of their achievements, without celebrating them. During the first year of her graduate studies in the environmental humanities program, my ex once talked to me about the sublime she felt looking into Kennecot’s Copper mine. This was not the sublime of celebration. The workers’ subjectivities do not hinge on celebrating the railroad. It hinges on finding ways of representing their subjectivities as faithfully as possible, as fraught of a project as that is. I agree with Rekdal that we’re all servants of the empire. Living and working in the US means having your tax dollars, your economic interests, and the labor you need to survive tied to US power structures. Unlike Rekdal, perhaps, and like June Jordan, I aspire to be a menace to my enemies and I do consider the United States, simply put, my enemy. The fantasies of the US have betrayed me and mine far too consistently and for too long for me to be otherwise.  

Lastly, I want to draw attention to the last essay-poem in the collection “Translation” because I think it is of interest to anyone who identifies as a part of a diaspora or for anyone whose family is in the process of losing a heritage language. Here, we find Rekdal being transparent and vulnerable about the potential shortcomings of her project and her relationships to the work. I don’t take issue with most of Rekdal’s methodology for the project, because mostly, I’m just in awe of the intense energy, dedication, and care she took in bringing these voices together in a website and book. Rekdal’s attention and hustle justifies and protects her work to a certain extent because it’s undeniable that Rekdal pulled off a difficult project with more grace and nuance than many could’ve mustered. I cannot imagine someone else doing much better. There are a couple of lines however that are touching in their painful ellisions: “I do not know Chinese. And since so few people in my family speak it, I know I will never learn. My family’s loss of language means my own exclusion from their past. Does this matter?” Here, we see a biracial poet and scholar grapple with the loss of their heritage language and what it means for her positionality in this larger project and relationship to her own history. Moments of tension like these abound throughout West with gorgeous poems like “Heart” and the wince in “Body.” In this particular citation, I wanted to gently unwind two points 1) The loss of a language, while driven by a complex of social factors, is still a choice. There is a world where Rekdal learns fluent Chinese, where I am a better speaker of Spanish and even learn nawat, where indigenous comrades do not surrender their native tongues and 2) To a certain extent, we are all excluded from familial past. Language is only one barrier. Unmarked graves, burned libraries, limited archives, gentrification, the death of elders in our communities are other material barriers. So much of our work as historians or storytellers is an attempt at ethical trespass. I mention these things because as diasporic people, we have a choice about how much we struggle to regain our non-American selves. The work of reaching back is inherently messy, but worthwhile. The whole Xicano movement is a case-in-point of how fruitful, ugly, useful, and difficult such a process can be. I don’t hold any judgment for Rekdal for how she’s navigated her biracial identity and I’m mostly moved and touched by her vulnerability and openness about it in her work. I’m bringing this up because I’m passionate about the necessity of reaching back, and as a whole, I’d argue West reaches back remarkably well, allowing us as readers, as Utahans, as Westerners, to see some of the histories erased in K-12 curricula, these histories that allow to better contend with who we are and who we have been and better imagine who we may become. 4.75/5 Hats off to Rekdal. 

Pig / sam sax / 2023

Pig / sam sax / 2023

Queer Jewish literary darling delivers a thoughtful collection about pigs, where standout poems include an ode to Miss Piggy, pig drag, and an anti-Zionist abcedarian. It made me aware of a particular trope in gay poetry, where the speaker expresses disgust with his/their own sexual history, particularly their abundance of sexual partners, which felt very vulnerable and moving when I first encountered it in graduate school and now feels commonplace. I read it in one sitting easily, and while I would hit replay on a number of these poems over and over to linger on their tension and crescendo, I cannot say they demand or accomplish anything extraordinary. I felt like this was a book I could write, perhaps, playful, at times touching and invigorating, always direct and open.  Let's call this a 3.5 out of 5, even if that plunges my poetry book ratings this year. 

2023 Willy Literary Awards

It’s time for the second annual Willy Literary Awards. I read 52 books this year, listed below.

About the winner: Manhunt is a post-apocalyptic dystopian novel about a zombie virus that infects people with enough testosterone, turning virtually all cis men, a solid chunk of trans men, some trans women, women with PCOS, and others into raping, murderous zombies. There is a fascist TERF governmental force annihilating trans women and the story follows a group of trans women as they harvest testicles from the zombies to make estrogen and otherwise struggle and fight to survive in a hateful world. From this difficult premise, Gretchen Felker-Martin weaves magic with a sickeningly relentless action-packed narration that manages to shed light on the complexities of womenhood, trans sexuality, gendered violence, and the politics of survival. Liberal tenderqueers stay away. If you are faint of heart, stay away. This book is brutal without being gratuitous with its violence. Even its most earth-shatteringly fucked up rape scenes propel the narrative forward, facing a terrible world unblinkingly. This book has received much undeserved criticism from readers whose traumatophobia prevents them from sitting with the discomfort and pain Felker-Martin offers. Through her extreme premise, Felker-Martin breaks a visceral path into a felt understanding of gendered violence. This viscerality in her approach breaks through cliched, sentimental equally traumatophobic master narratives of what gendered violence is and who we are after experiencing it. Felker-Martin’s victims are broken but undefeatable. They will never heal but they will always survive and grow. A friend and I used to joke about being so excited to take down the patriarchy and learning all the ways women would oppress people. What’s funny is that Manhunt isn’t a book that reduces men to monsters, even though that’s literally the premise. Rather, through cuttingly honest and heartbreaking scenes, Felker-Martin shows how queer folx and women sometimes replicate violent schemata in their communities. Its honest conversations about the ways queer and feminist communities sometimes fails us made me feel seenin a way all the books worried about having the correct politics never do. With acerbic wit and down-to-earth moments, Felker-Martin’s characters felt like real people I have met and known.

Other fiction reads this year:

1.     The Inhabited Woman / Gioconda Belli / 1988

2.     Once We Were Warriors / Alan Duff / 1990

3.     Carmilla / Sheridan Le Fanu / 1872

4.     Never Whistle in The Night: An Indigenous Dark Fiction Anthology / edited by Shane Hawk and Theodore C. Van Alst Jr. / 2023

5.     Autoboygraphy / Christina Lauren / 2017

6.     100 Years of Solitude / Gabriel Garcia Marquez / 1967

7.     Temporada de huracanes / Fernanda Melchor / 2017

8.     Out There Screaming: Am Anthology of New Black Horror / Edited by Jordan Peele / 2023

9.     Red Ants / Jose Pergentino / 2012

10.  The Runaway Restaurant / Tessa Yang / 2022

About the winners: Franz Fanon has taken one of my most burnt out periods of my life and made it one where I have dived into books with a renewed passion. I’m devouring academic books now for the first time after years outside of graduate school. I’m voracious, I’m angry, and I’m ready now thanks to Fanon. Fern Brady, on the other hand, represents an exceptional disabled memoir. Disability politics is key to our survival as a planet. Until we center disability, we won’t win. I’m taking all recs here. I have a lot of reading to catch up on.

Other non-fiction reads this year:

1.     M to (WT)F / Samantha Allen / 2020

2.     Real Queer America / Samantha Allen / 2019

3.     Pleasure Activism / Edited by adrienne marie brown / 2019

4.     Ace: What Asexuality Reveals about Desire, Society, and the Meaning of Sex / Angela Chen / 2020

5.     Somewhere We Are Human / edited by Reyna Grande / 2022

6.     Gasa Gasa Girl Goes to Camp / Lily Havey / 2014

7.     The Banished Immortal: A Life of Li Bai / Ha Jin / 2019

8.     Hood Feminism / Mikki Kendall / 2020

9.     When The Chickenheads Come to Roost / Joan Morgan / 1999

10.  My Kitchen Table / Pilar Pobil / 2007

11.  The Brown Church: Five Centuries of Latino/a Social Justice, Theology, and Identity / Robert Chao Romero / 2020

12.  Sexuality Beyond Consent / Avgi Saketepoulou / 2023

13.  Being Seen: A Deaf Blind Women's Fight to End Ableism / Elsa Sjunneson / 2021

14.  Solito / Javier Zamora / 2022

About the WInner: Carlos Cortez feels like my most true literary ancestor. He woulda thrived in slam, but his work is so much bigger than it. Environmental, Race Conscious, and with an eye on anarchism, he wrote like he was trying to build a new world with his pen.

Other poetry and theatre reads:

1.     When She Woke, She Was An Open Field / Hilary Brown / 2017

2.     Brown Girl Chromatography / Anuradha Bhowmik / 2022

3.     Early Uncollected Poems / Lucille Clifton / 1965-1969

4.     Coyote Song: Collected Poems and Selected Art of Carlos Cortez / Carlos Cortez / 2023

5.     Drift migration / Danielle Dubrasky / 2022

6.     Dear Lin / Lin Flores / 2023

7.     Who Look At Me / June Jordan / 1969

8.     Some Changes / June Jordan / 1971

9.     The Hurting Kind / Ada Limón / 2022

10.  Tres Tercas Trincheras / Marielos Olivo / 2023

11.  Ocean Filibuster / Pearldamour / 2016 (Theatre)

12.  El Rey of Gold Teeth / Reyes Ramirez / 2023

13.  The Best Barbarian / Roger Reeves / 2023

14.  Relinqueda / Alexandra Regalado / 2022

15.  Knees in the Garden / Christina Rodriguez / 2023

16.  Chicana Falsa / Michele Serros / 1998

17.  Gaze Back / Marylyn Tan / 2018

Children’s Books

1.     Mis Zapatos y Yo / Rene Colato Laínez / 2019

2.     A Dinosaur Named Ruth / Julia Lyons / 2021

STATS

5% of authors were disabled - I’m gonna work on getting this number up for next year.

28.8% of authors were LGBTQ+ - Healthy :)

13.4% of authors were outside the US - Not bad, but I want to be reading more international lit. Ideally, I’m closer to 30% here I think.

This makes me happy.

I want to be reading more Native/Islander Lit, but feeling good otherwise.

I need to read more old stuff.

Theatre is my biggest weakness. Need to work on that.

Some Changes / June Jordan / 1971

Some Changes / June Jordan / 1971

This is Jordan's first collection of poetry for adults and the first time I've read her in book form. She did not disappoint. I'm charmed by how absolutely weird she is, jamming words and phrases together until they're jelly on your tongue. Included in this collection is my favorite Jordan poem "In Memorium: Martin Luther King Jr" as well as new-to-me bangers like "What Would I Do White?" As always, her political vision is impeccable. 5/5

Who Look At Me / June Jordan / 1969

Who Look At Me / June Jordan / 1969

Published in 1969, Jordan's debut poetry collection was written for children yet retains many hallmark features of her style. There is a twist in Jordan's rhythm, a willingness to say something that feel strange in the mouth, even as it fits between your teeth. This collection doesn't shy away from the grief of history, tackling the turmoil of the violence and wreckage head on. It conveys the lessons of survival urgently. In this era of picture books and talking animals, we need more of this energy, of taking children's intelligence and sturdiness seriously. At the same time, I cannot imagine reading this to the children in my life, although upper elementary aged children who have been given solid educations can probably handle it. 3/5

A Dinosaur Named Ruth / Julia Lyons / 2021

A Dinosaur Named Ruth / Julia Lyons / 2021

A delightful read about a woman whose love of nature led her to preserve fossils the scientists repeatedly told her were insignificant. It includes plenty of challenging but doable words for the second grade kiddo in my life. He also stopped many times while reading to marvel and comment on the cool drawings. After waiting until she was 70, the woman is finally approached by a scientist who recognizes the value of the fossils. It was a delightful read. 5/5

Chicana Falsa / Michele Serros / 1998

Chicana Falsa / Michele Serros / 1998

This delightful collection es pura chisme and micheladas with a homegirl. I especially enjoyed its magnetic moments of heat, where a neighborhood story would punch along just right. Though her work seems largely forgotten these days and it could hardly be claimed that she was a literary GOAT, I appreciate sitting with her work and honor the way she carved some of the path for contemporary latinx poetics. I hear echoes of her in some of mis plumitas and enjoyed every moment I spent with this book. 3/5

Pleasure Activism / Edited by adrienne marie brown / 2019

Pleasure Activism / Edited by adrienne marie brown / 2019

I started reading this book in 2019 at the height of my PTSD symptoms and have sunken into it little by little. Built largely upon Audre Lorde's "The Uses of the Erotic," the collection includes abundant essays and interviews following activists' journeys into reconnecting with their joy and pleasure. Because of the genre, I actually recommend listening to the audio book rather than reading it. It reads like a thoughtful podcast. I'm immensely grateful for this book as it included many tools for reconnecting and rerooting myself. Without pleasure and joy at the center of our work, many of our struggles would be in vain. 3.7/5

Early Uncollected Poems / Lucille Clifton / 1965-1969

Early Uncollected Poems / Lucille Clifton / 1965-1969

I read this collecting to Anushka after a wounding day where an immigration officer grilled me for 1.5 hours during Anushka's green card interview. It succeeded in calming us, making us laugh and hum and ponder in the Indiana gray. It's stunning how good these poems are when she hadn't even truly began her literary career yet. Better than most bonafides tbh. There's an especially good nursery rhymes here for young girls. 4/5

Gaze Back / Marylyn Tan / 2018

Gaze Back / Marylyn Tan / 2018

A deliciously subversive and playful poetry collection by a feminist Chinese Singoporean author. I read the collection curious about learning more about Chinese LGBT culture. While the collection accesses queerness largely using Western language, it still includes plenty of poems unpacking Eastern folk traditions, gender norms and the like. Rife with puns, spicy imagery and emotional bungee jumps, the collection did not disappoint with its rigor and recklessness. My favorite poems included one that rewrote Christ as a teenage girl, which if written by an undergrad would likely be intolerably hackneyed and overwrought, but is somehow pulled off with majesty and flare here. 4/5

Gasa Gasa Girl Goes to Camp / Lily Havey / 2014

Gasa Gasa Girl Goes to Camp / Lily Havey / 2014

In this memoir about growing up in the Japanese internment camp, Lily recreates her childhood perspective to tell a mouth-drying story what it was like to be a young Japanese girl shouldering the gender, racial and class baggage of American and Japanese culture. Lily displays remarkable wisdom and understanding intrinsic to her being, even in her youth, as she mothers her parents, who regularly break under the trauma of their upbringings and adulthoods, leaning on their daughter for comfort. Havey's honesty about the layers of racism, her apt comparisons of the interment camps to Native reservations, all make for a gripping read. All of which is delivered through the mouthpiece of a tween with her passions and frenzy. Interlaced between paragraphs are paintings by Havey, as she's a visual artist by profession. It stuns and baffles me that this book didn't have more national acclaim when it was published. It's truly on par with Solito. 5/5

Solito / Javier Zamora / 2022

Solito / Javier Zamora / 2022

Solito is a memoir recounting Javier's journey to the US, without his family, as a 9-year-old. I'll write a longer review about this book later, but my biggest notes are as follows: 1) the choice to recreate the voice of his 9-year-old self and the day-by-day timeline of his trek is extremely ambitious. The line between memory and imagination must blur somewhere along the way. It's painstaking, masterful, and deeply rewarding. I'm curious what historians will make of this book and how they will use it. 2) this is a work of environmental literature and I hope folks in environmental humanities champion this book. Young Javi's mind describes flora and fauna in exquisite detail. 3) I cried on the train listening to this book at least 4 times. 4) it took me months to read, honestly bc the 9 yr old voice and repetitiveness of certain parts of the journey became a bit boring at times, as it should when you're describing waiting in a hotel room for weeks in end until you wait for the next leg of the journey. Historically, that's important to mark. 5) there's discrepancies between Unaccompanied and Solito. Specifically, Chino dies in Unaccompanied and his whereabouts are left unknown in Solito. The first and second attempt crossing are flipped in Unaccompanied. This isn't a criticism. Memory is fickle, especially early childhood trauma. I'm really curious what Javi would say about this though. 6) this is an extremely poignant ode to Patricia and Chino, the adults who cared for him along his journey. It is a gigantic testament to the lengths humans will go to love and protect one another in the face of the worst the world has to offer (the soulless US immigration system). 7) this is the pettiest, most hilarious moment in the book for me: in his second attempt crossing, a journey that likely left dozens of migrants and a coyote dead in the desert, when his unit is separated from the group when Javi is delirious and potentially going to die of thirst, he says something to the effect, I am so thirsty I would even drink Mexican horchata. I bust out laughing on the train. That's how much Salvis hate Mexican horchata. We'll use one of the most heartrending moments of our magnum opus memoir to throw shade, and it'll be completely honest. Hats off, Javi. Peace be with you. 5/5

Somewhere We Are Human / edited by Reyna Grande / 2022

Somewhere We Are Human / edited by Reyna Grande / 2022

This is the undocumented anthology we've needed for years. Exquisitely curated, it features the voices of undocumented migrants across Latin America, Asia, and Africa and from a range of intersecting identities. It's delightfully queer forward. While I knew my friend Mariella Mendoza was featured in this collection writing urgently about their connection to Native communities and land defense work, I was stunned to find Azul Uribe's story. Azul was a Mormon in Cedar City who was persecuted by her own congregation and ultimately deported. I cried on the train when I read her story because it was too close to home. I lived in Cedar City. I can only imagine it 20 years ago, how much worse its racism must have been, how callous and inhuman it was when I knew it. Azul could've been my neighbor, my hermana if she wasn't stolen from her home. Other compelling essays include Yosimar Reyes' depiction of his undocumented community, the essay of an undocumented lawyer reflecting on the limitations of the legal system in providing viable avenues of resistance for undocumented movements. I especially was moved by and cried on the train again when I read Reyna Grande's essay about the generational distances created between families by migration. I can see the distance in worlds of understanding between my mother, my sister, and my niece all too well. The only essay that felt almost out of place was the essay by the decorated soldier, who managed to hold onto some sense of idealism about the USA despite the injustices in his own narrative. His inclusion makes sense, however, to cover a range of the undocumented experience in to demonstrate that even military excellence will not save you from the dehumanization of the system. 5/5

Autoboygraphy / Christina Lauren / 2017

Autoboygraphy / Christina Lauren / 2017

I’m not typically a great fan of romances, especially ones set in Provo where the love interest is the queer son of a LDS bishop, but two-thirds or so of the way through I wept. Lauren does an excellent job portraying the electric playfulness and full-hearted commitment of young love, as well as all the ways families, religion, and culture can make something so simple so painfully complicated. This story follows a bisexual teen from liberal family as he breaks his heart against the culture of his sort-of boyfriend. While the book does include an annoying amount of passages contextualizing Provo/Mormon culture, the passages do also serve as touch points to understand how our protagonist reads the situation. It’s extremely even-handed in its portrayal, which means narrow-minded ideological Mormons will be pissed by it. Overall, a way better read than it has the right to be. 4/5

Mis Zapatos y Yo / Rene Colato Laínez / 2019

Mis Zapatos y Yo by Rene Colato Laínez (2019)

A truly remarkable children’s book that manages to tell the difficult story of the perilous journey crossing undocumented across two borders into the United States with a voice and details that are real and accessible for children, without being traumatic. The illustrations are marvelous and actively distracted Nathan as he read. After we were finished, he wanted to return to his favorite illustrations and tell me what he liked about them. The Spanish translation included plenty of onomatopoeias that both Nathan and Baby Chino liked comparing to the English. A precious read. 5/5